There are so many days when you eat the same things that gave you a controlled level of blood glucose, but you still spike. And then you have to take correction boluses.
I find this phenomenon extremely frustrating. It’s like my body (or my insulin pump) likes to see how far I can take it. At times it’s as if it’s waiting for me to give up. But I know I won’t. I know I can’t, not just yet.
Today was such a day. I took my bolus a little before too, but I still spiked. I don’t know where I went wrong, and going to class with high sugar levels, especially when today is the day you decide to leave your room a bit early to get coffee, is super duper frustrating. I took a correction bolus, and decided to wait. FYI, I did buy that coffee, and I fully intend to drink it.
I’m a huge coffee lover, but I’ve cut down my caffeine to probably once or twice a month. It helps me remain calm. I don’t know if it’s a insulin absorption issue, or if it is due to the medication I took last night. Only time will tell.
But this does not change the stress of it all, especially if something like coffee is a stress buster. Sometimes food can reduce stress, but if the aftermath is going to be causing more tension than break it, the whole point seems to be moot. It's days like these when I begin to wonder what life would have been without diabetes...
Until then, you’re doing great! Everything’s going to be okay. Some days, it just has to be.
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